Hectic. Fucking. Week. ISATS since last week and the fucked up schedule stayed all this week. Luckily we got Wednesday. Well, I did at least. Juniors took their SATs and Seniors did their senior projects, so freshman and sophomores didn’t have to go to school. ;] that was a bonus. 

But the weather has been so bipolar I couldn’t enjoy it very much. I tried hanging out with Hayden on Wednesday because he’s mad we can never hang out on weekdays since I always have so much shit to do, but the weather’s like LOLNOPE. 

Today’s Friday, I’m sorta excited I guess. Nothing too big. Just Friday. we don’t have school next Friday, happy about that. I wish I had more to say, but even if I did, I wouldn’t have the time to say it. 

ISATS.

Only the one week a school year where we take the Idaho Standard Achievement Test (different for all states). Basically, the computer testing to see where you are on a state level. It’s Thursday and I’ve only taken my English ISAT. 
I’m REALLY impressed with my score, super happy.
So I guess they didn’t have a Freshman score, so our score was based on sophomore level. So what might have been proficient for sophomores was advanced for us. (levels going in order: Below basic, basic, proficient, advanced). Freshman advanced was 239. I got advanced in SOPHOMORE level. 243. YESYESYES. 

The thing that is scaring me now are my science and my math ISATS. My science teacher assigned us this big geologic timescale assignment due on the same week as our OTHER science project, our earth day stuff. And since today is Thursday, I’m not sure if we take it today, the last 90 minute day this week to finish it..
I know I’m taking my math tomorrow. Be prepared, basic scores! :D

I fucking hate math.

Oh well, stupid ISATS.  

Ugh. I’m not so sure why this bugs me so much… I’m with Hayden. I should be happy. I shouldn’t care. So why do I? 

I honestly still sorta miss Chris.. Why? I have no idea. He was nothing but an ass.. But sometimes he’s so sweet. We had almost 3 years of knowing each other and being involved. Dated him twice, yes.. Only for a little bit… But a whole 2.. almost 3 years. Why do I care? 

Fuck if I know… :/

Damn it damn it DAMN IT.

What have I done? Omfg. I’m dating Hayden again. 
Don’t get me wrong, I like him.. A lot. He’s probably the one person I trust the most right now. But things always get so complicated when we date. He always wants to talk, always wants to hang out. Stuff I can’t do that much because of school. School! That’s what’s ruining us. School. I can’t help it that my mom is so pushy about it. This quarter is what will ruin us, I swear it will.

On the other hand, driving today was pretty fun. I didn’t realize how hard reverse was. I mean, I kinda guessed it was hard-ish. But it WAS my first time so I’m proud. I didn’t crash. Watch out.. When I’m on the streets, I just might run you over. 

Anyways, I’m tired. Time for bed. Night. <3

Uhm. so I really don’t know what to say right now.. My life’s been pretty content. I’m stressing out on my speech video that Emily, Kylie and I have to finish. But not really a big deal. Geometry is honestly gonna fucking suck. I have to try to get a decent grade this quarter. 

Lmao, liiiiike that’ll happen. 
but yeah, my life is pretty good right now.

Hayden; 
You are the reason I’m happy right now. And what bugs me is that I feel scared that we can’t be together without something messing up. I mean, you’re awesome. You’re amazing. And I know this is soon.. I mean it’s only been about a year that things have gone on with you.. But I sorta love you. i know you won’t read this. But UGH you’re freaking amazing. I’m scared to actually be together because things change when we’re together. We fight more, I suddenly feel suffocated. We feel this obligation to be near each other 24/7. I want things to be like how they are RIGHT now. I don’t want things to change. >.<

On the brighter side! 
Driving tomorrow? Possibly. My dad is gonna go up and see if he can get my learner’s permit, then taking me up to his workplace and gonna let me take a test ride a few times. I’m super fucking excited. c: 

Let’s begin with Monday. Technically Sunday night. Being unable to sleep and waking up super early, only to leave after 2 classes because I have a headache I can’t handle.

Next day, block schedule. 1, 3, 5, and 7 for an hour and a half each. I spend 3rd hour running the timed mile, coming out with 13:04. (GREAT time. -.-) 3rd from last, in front of the 2 mentally challenged girls in class. (NO OFFENSE, nothing against mentally challenged people.

When it comes to running, I’m a giant baby. Being one of the last few to finish, I didn’t get as much time to rest as some of the first finishers. I got about a minute before she shipped us off back to the high school. (We have to walk to the Jr. High because they have the track we run on).

For the rest of the class period I couldn’t breathe right AND I had a horrible case of jello legs. So what does she do? Makes us play handball immediately. I felt the need to tell her I couldn’t breathe right. I should have known it was useless, there’s nothing she could do than sit there and make fun of me like she normally does. “Who needs it? Breathing is overrated.” Bitch wants me to rip her lungs out. 

So yeah, that was Tuesday. It is currently Thursday and my right leg feels like I pulled several muscles. Ughhhhh.

My geometry teacher is beyond stupid. What teachers stops grading a whole assignment and only the 4 hardest problems? No wonder your students are failing, they do most of the assignment and skip a few problems they don’t understand that YOU won’t help them with, and you don’t grade the ones they did. Just the ones they didn’t do. Genius, right? Not to mention that everybody but Kat, Tess, and Josh hate me in that class because I’m a freshman. Which I find funny, because geometry is usually taken by freshman, then algebra 2 as a sophomore. We have several juniors and a senior in my class. *shakes head* failllll.

My english teacher is pretty idiotic as well. And I find this funny because 2 of my smarty pants friends “shun” me because I don’t like her. We were reading To Kill a Mockingbird, and we did a packet pointing out stupid things. For example, the first page asked for examples of allusions, similes, metaphors, and personifications. Seriously? I have a hard enough time as it is getting into the story line and understanding what I’m reading, then you make me pick the book apart one by one to point out things I learned in 5th grade? Bitch please. I’ll read the book to understand and enjoy it. 

Parent-teacher conferences are next week. I’m excited, it’s the one day I bitch at all my teachers and just don’t give a fuck. My mom hates me for it. ;)